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no introduction, just like before, and before. because of what? sometimes, when i try to be a better person, there'll be always an obstacle. it's not easy, yet i have to go through it.

let it be, the way it is. anyway, i try to be myself, a real me. i changed this blog's name many times. i've my own reason. and everything happens for a reason. now, i try to use this blog using my name, again. haha. because i don't want to lose myself again.

just be myself, yes, it's true. but, at some time, we couldn't recognize ourselves. oh no, who i am today, who is this person in me right now and blablabla, and tomorrow, we become like another person. eh, bipolar disorder? no no no. it isn't.

sometimes, to understand ourselves is not easy. that's why i need my time to be alone, to think of myself. this blog actually, i did it when i was in form 5. 5 years ago. it's been too long. when i remember it back, it's funny how i am at that time. but, mostly, around 100 posts, i've deleted for some reasons.

it's shame. haha. why? because at that time, my mind didn't work so much, immatured. heh, just like now, maybe.

it becomes nonsense, the way i write right now. back to the topic. difficulty in easy. i try to hate myself first before i "hate" others. why? because, saya tak faham diri sendiri. letak matlamat dalam hidup, dan itu akan jadi mudah.

buat apa benci manusia lain, sedangkan diri kita jua bermasalah untuk faham diri sendiri, kerana kita jua kan pernah merasa buat kesilapan. fikir-fikirkan, kalau tak suka orang lain, doakan moga hati kita dan hati mereka dilembutkan.

kita tak boleh nak ubah orang lain serta merta kerana hati itu Allah swt yang pegang.