I 'speak'. I 'talk'.

Assalamu'alaikum,

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I've had everything. I felt everything. And for now, I'm just trying to put myself in a better condition. But still, I am the old one.

Does anyone knows my problem? No probably. They don't know or care about my problems. Even though I told them a thousand problems, do they solve them? No for sure. They only give supports, advices and put their hands around your neck and hug you to comfort you.

They don't solve but they calm us. I have friends, and I miss them. Friendship never ends. I'm not strong, I can't be like you, like them, like theirs. I can't change myself into your place. That will never change anything.

But, I'm proud to be myself. Because I experienced them by my own. How could anyone blames me? Being hurtful so much, broken, cheated, blamed, humiliated, and everything that I could not tell anyone but for Allah.

I don't care if anyone hates me so much, talks behind me. Because I have Him. He who always listens to me, loves me, and because of Him, I was here, in this world.

I don't know how many times I should tell all these. This is, what my heart tells. To speak it out loud so everyone knows what was inside me. The natural me, instead of telling people that and this, I tell you Mr. Blogger. You know that?

Astaghfirullahalazim, astaghfirullahalzim, may Allah forgive me. I always forgot to remember You when I was in happy, but I did remember You when I was in difficult time. Allahu Rabbi...

Sometimes, I keep thinking. I want a better life, live in a good condition, but I know, different people, different live they got. I know everything was not so easy, to get the things we want, we have to work harder, with the do'a to Allah, and InsyaAllah, everything will be just fine.

I keep telling all these in my blog, but, I'm telling myself, did I do all these kind? NO, not at all. I speak it, I talk it, just to REMIND ME, and remind you.

I tell you because I love you. Love does not mean I 'love', but it means thanks for being my friends. May Allah bless us always.

Anyone can begin instantly, but very few can continue constantly.

p/s : A busy life makes prayer harder, but prayer makes a busy life easier.